and I ain’t got no vodka or tomato juice or any of the other ingredients it takes to make a BM, at least that kind of BM. Immature? yep, pretty much. Not a whole lot going on lately and that’s the problem, I guess that’s what summer is supposed to be, staying up late getting into trouble and sleeping in. There has been an extreme lack of adventures though and that’s the problem. A lack of partners in crime as well.
I have been in a bad mood lately, mostly because of the reasons above, I feel like I am just killing time til the end of the month when my life will be different in someway, at least in where i am living which is still up in the air until I figure out if I go on this tour or not, which I have decided that I definitely want to do, just for the change of pace, scenery etc… I will have to overcome the notion of sleeping on stranger’s couches, pretending to be a band manager, talking like a professional and most importantly and the most difficult obstacle, using public restrooms in roadside restaurants. Gonna have to buy an economy size of hand sanitizer for that one. I went to talk to someone yesterday and he asked about obsessive compulsive tendencies that I might have and I mentioned the bathroom thing and how that has increased this year. He never gave me a good answer as to whether what I do is normal or a sign of OCD. I had been having more and more problems with social anxiety and went to the doctor who asides from medicine, wants me to talk to someone so i went yesterday. The first time was free and he showed me some great relaxation techniques, I don’t think I am going to go back though, i don’t think my problems are big enough and I feel like there wouldn’t be a point to start a relationship with someone when I am leaving in a few weeks anyways. So that’s where I am at, hopefully headed in a better direction.
As long as we are in this akward stage of this blog, I now have 2 unemployed parents. While this obviously sucks, I like knowing that at least my folks are spending more time with one another, going on bike rides, walks, meals together and at least are going through the same difficult interviews and scouring the web together for jobs with each other. my mom did manage to get unemployment, which is a meagerly $225 a week and with my dad taking his social security early they are scraping by and are applying to everything and anything but still no luck. It’s going to be hard to leave them if i go on tour, but it will at least be a good distraction to always thinking about them. i think eventually they’ll both find something and my hopes is that sometime in the next 5 years we can all go on a family vacation somewhere, that me and my siblings will chip in and take us to somewhere outdoors, in the NW or something.
Alright, that’s the depressing part of this blog, here’s the other half.
Meat Puppets last Sunday were awesome, I had never listened to a ton of their music but damn they were good, polished and entertaining. Went to a cool dance thing the night before on the roof of Epic which was a great place for an outdoor dance party. Not a lot of people, but the good ol boys were out and that’s all that mattered. I wish there was an rooftop party like that every weekend, not like dancing on top of stella’s, that would be a douchebag party which is the opposite of what this was. Saw Bruno the other night and if you don’t find that funny then you have failed as a person. You need to understand that he isn’t doing anything wrong, it’s our society’s response to homosexuals that is wrong, which is clearly exposed in this film. I haven’t laughed that hard since I saw Borat. One other thing that is awesome which I have discovered lately is biking everywhere, especially at night. i feel like a kid again cruising around wellington and stone road when I am on my bike at night, such a good time. Going to the National tonight, which is one of my favorite bands. This is going to be one of the shows where I just want to sit by myself and sing along to their deep, emotional lyrics. Probably not a good show for me today but whatever, I am excited. Jean Jam 2 is next week and I can’t wait. Might be my last hurrah for a while.
That was boring,
Ted Williams
